freeeeedom!!!!!! 

wholeness

FREEDOM. FORGIVNEESS TOWARDS ONESELF AND OTHERS.

Lord what and how does it mean to forgive oneself. how does it look like. 

destructive patterns - I know that what I am doing is not the real me. Turning my heart back to God - and sorry for all the sins and allowing FOOD to become mY idol , for allowing it to control me, for allowing it to go into temptations. 

renounce:

- all the things that people have said about my face

- all the things that people have said about my looks 

that made me  feel that I need to change how I look to be acceptable and pleasing. 

I so long want to just be normal

and part of the journey is not comparing myself with other girls

of what the society defines as skinny or good looking

but be confident of who I am. and not compare even with church people. 

lord fill me with your love and help me to be confident in my own skin. that I may love your creation. 

stop trying to take things into your own hands. but only the love of God can heal and restore. 

firs step is repent

and renounce

and receive.

I even struggle to receive forgiveness over myself and God's love.

Psalm 51 - Lord, wash my clean and make me whole. 

create a pure heart in me O God, and renew a steadfast spirit in me. 

Do not cast your presence or take your HS away from me

< sin - separates us from God . but you can only come into his presence when your heart is clean .

who am I to reject his love

who am I to reject his forgiveness

who am I to not receive and think that I am unworthy when he is the creator and teh maker of heavens and the earth

who am I. 

am I not God's creation

am I not his daughter

surely. the enemy has no hold over my life. 

tonight breaking free

of shame and guilt and condemnation

no more.

and I receive and I wan to receive the healing and love of God.

help me and lead me to the path of righteousness

for your name sake.

I do not want to defile your name.

why GH

why GH,